Monday, September 12, 2011

Confessions, Part 3

See also:
Confessions, Part 1
Confessions, Part 2

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Lucas,

Your comment about not enjoying vulnerability is the sad story of the modern world I'm afraid. We live in an age where it is easier than ever to locate and track anyone, do anything you want to them, and move on with no consequences as long as you can show proper papers for it. The vast majority are walking naked and blindfolded before those with power, and the only thing that keeps the system moving is the simple belief that they are, in fact, safe.

Poor fools.

Embrace your vulnerability, Lucas. You will be humiliated, hurt, and colossally defeated when you least expect it in this life. It is a certainty. Own it, accept it, find the freedom of being one with it and stepping forward in the face of it. Doing so is the beginning of real power in this world, rather than the illusion thereof.

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Regarding "morality": everybody, without exception, thinks they are the "good guys" Lucas. Everybody is the hero of their own story. From Genghis Kahn ordering his troops to kill all of the males in a village and rape the rest, to owners of modern-day child armies in Africa, to pedophile necrophiliacs on death row, everyone is of the opinion that they've made the best choice available given the circumstances. Everyone thinks they are virtuous "underneath it all".

I do my best to divest myself of any such illusions. I do what I do because it serves my curiosity and I enjoy the ego boost of doing what few people dream of. Whether what I do is for good or for ill is likely something I'll only discover years after the fact, or perhaps when I'm dead and gone and eternity grants me a quick look back.

Regarding morality as it relates to organizations: it doesn't. An organization is, inherently, an amoral construction. Think of it like an insect. Good or evil are abstract concepts beyond the insect's capacity for comprehension. While all organizations are originally birthed for theoretically virtuous reasons, those reasons quickly get forgotten. "Mission and Value Statements" are forgotten in any organization over 10 years old. After that point it exists for one reason only: to grow.

This is true of corporations, government agencies, and even charities. The people who make it run are operating on an insect-level logic, and are neither moral nor immoral. They just operate.

While you may disagree from a philosophical point of view, I must urge you to accept it from a functional point of view. This has been tested and proven to be a useful way to work with organizations time and time again. We get fantastic results using this approach. I dare say that if organizations were moral... well, there wouldn't be much for me to do in a day.

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Your comment about my casual yet confusing reference to mind control programs and the like is well taken. When something is well-understood the mistake is to begin to consider it "obvious", no matter how specialized the knowledge happens to be. It is a logical blunder that I will do my best not to repeat.

One point that should be quickly clarified then: the express purpose of erasing my early life from my mind was purely to give myself a "blank slate" upon which to build what I will. No biases, no old wounds that need healing, no old wishes to be just like mommy or daddy or big bro, just a grand vast void within which I can construct whatever I fancy.

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This email has already gone on a fair bit without covering my areas of expertise, which was the original intent when I took the keyboard this evening. In general one might say that I'm a coordinator of other people's genius.

Earlier in my career I polished up and codified the extensive work from the past century or so in the manipulation of public perception. We're at a point now where the general public is easy enough to manipulate that even an idiot can handle the task, and so I'm only ever called in when something on a global scale needs to be addressed. It's a fairly old science anyway.

The best example I can think of is when Constantine decided to convince Christians that there was no such thing as reincarnation, removing all references to it from the books of the Bible. Such was his success that centuries later Christians are completely unaware of the earlier versions of their own sacred document. Biblical scholars are trained even now to omit any book from the Bible deemed "inconsistent", and so a dozen or so books are floating around out there that are considered sacrilegious even though they're more "authentic" than what is referred to as holy.

There was a time where I considered Constantine's achievement the high-water mark for public manipulation but so much has been done since then, and the techniques have become so easy, that the whole thing bores me now.

Given my personal experiences and natural talents I was recruited at one point to work as a handler for programmed operatives that have been sprinkled around the world, all of whom consider themselves normal people living normal lives. It was a complete waste of my talents. You learn a few trigger words and programming protocols and send them off to seduce or kill someone, then suggest some false memories and send them on their way. Ultimately you're using about as much of your mind as you might operating a crane or a remote control car. While the boredom was a big contributor to my moving on, the tipping point was the paperwork. Layers upon layers of encoding, government protocols, and the constant droning speeches of how it was all for the "greater good" and a "higher cause" blah blah blah... nothing is more tedious than a person who takes themselves seriously, and the people I was forced to work with at the time were pathetic zealots.

There are a few stories there I suppose, both in some large-scale manipulations we've pulled off and some intrigue with a half-dozen three letter agencies, but maybe we'll come back to all of that later. On with the timeline...

It was around this point that I took a year long sabbatical to decide on where I really wanted to spend my time. I deconstructed the mind control programs that people were using and found them to be fairly complete, with little room for true innovation beyond what amounts to parlor tricks. I investigated the newer work being done in nootropics, brainwave entrainment, and magnetic brain interference patterns. Somewhere along the lines I came across what became the bulk of my current work: the "real" manipulation of space/time through altered perception. This led me down the road of the occult, psychedelics, and other newly-invented fields of study that I haven't had the opportunity to name yet.

I'll have to give some thought on how to continue with this. It occurs to me that the past few paragraphs have fallen into the trap of assuming you know what I'm talking about when, likely, you have no idea. Most people don't. Perhaps giving specific examples of experiments I've run will help. Let me take a few days to consider how to do so without exposing anyone.

Meanwhile, feel free to ask more questions.

Regards,

Sirus

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